two nights ago i smoked weed with my dad (!) to say the least, it was terrifying. me and my goddamned low tolerance..i went completely insane i think he was trying to get us to bond, or try to treat me as a grownup or something. i didnt like it. and then of course, there was the munchies. i stood in the kitchen and devoured two organic pop-tart things (my parents are hippies, they dont buy real brand name things...) a giant bowl of cereal, a bagel, and some crackers. it was disusting....thats how much a normal person eats in one day...ahhh and then yesterday i had a mocha and salad and a slice of pizza and pita chips. so now i feel disgustingggggggggggg no eating today! well, my mom will force dinner down my throat (both of my parents make me eat, they know that i at least in the past have had an eating problem. plus ive lost over twenty pounds in the last year, that could be it too.) anyways though besides the fact that i feel like 200 pounds, i feel like shit b/c my boyfriend has been blowing me off. i think he is basically throwing his life away...like, he can be very sweet, and intellegent, but i just think he is making some pretty big mistakes. for one, he smokes more than once almost everyday. and he drinks alot. i mean, i admit. i have gone through times when i smoked everyday. but it was just that it was fun, i stopped. i could have stopped at any time. it was just there, and it was a fun pastime for me and my friend..we didnt do it when we needed to accomplish other things. idk. i sometimes feel like he cares more about weed and his friends than me. well, more than sometimes. 
ha i just remembered everytime i go into startbucks, they give me weird looks. i once fainted in there beacuse i had barely eaten for a few days. and then i smoked. | 
